I’ve come to the conclusion that there is never a stage of parenting where you are not worried that you are screwing up your child. Not necessarily, they’re-going-to-turn-into-a-serial-killer kind of screwing up. But more like will-they-not-reach-their-full-potential-and-it’s-all-my-fault kind of screwing up.
The worry that’s be on my mind recently? Kindergarten. This is a normal worry, & a big transition for kids & parents alike. The crazy thing about it is that kindergarten is two years away for Matteo, & I am already worried about it!
I blame all of the back to school hype for making my brain go into overdrive. And once I started thinking about it, I felt like there were so many aspects to worry about.
I know rationally that two years makes a huge difference in a child’s development. I know rationally that there are numerous decisions that will all lead to Matteo being successful in one form or another.
But the Mom brain goes to:
Will he be emotionally ready for kindergarten? If he’s not ready, do I homeschool him until he is more comfortable? Or do I send him & just have him get used to it?
He isn’t going to preschool. Will that mean that he will be behind other kids as far as classroom skills go? Should I send him to preschool next year b/c every other kid goes?
Will he be bored academically? He loves the preschool curriculum I’ve been doing with him. Is he ahead of the game? Or is everyone else also “ahead of the game”?
Of course, I will only know the answers to these questions closer to the time. But I can’t help thinking about it & wanting to prepare him for whatever may be ahead.
The good thing is that I always feel better when I research & look into things. It helps me to know clear options even if I don’t know which one I’m going to choose yet.
Through my (premature) research I’ve discovered that our school district no longer offers early enrollment (children under 5) so I don’t have to worry about potentially making that decision. Kindergarten is only about 3 hours long (3 hours apart from my boy is not a big deal). There are numerous kindergarten prep events to help kids & parents get used to the idea of it & ease the transition.
These thought processes have also made me realize how lucky I am to even have these choices. I am so lucky to be able to stay home & be my sons’ primary caregiver. I am lucky that they don’t have to go to daycare, & that any childcare that happens is with beloved friends & family. I am lucky to have the resources to be able to teach him preschool skills at home. And I am lucky to have wonderful mom friends so that we can have play dates to work on peer interactions.
So yes, I worry. Yes, I use brain power on things that may not need my immediate attention. But I’m a mom… Isn’t that part of the job description? 🙂